I only find life when I follow through with my Savior's command given in Luke 9:23 when he said, "If anyone would come after me, let him deny himself and take up his cross daily and follow me." I must learn to let my old self die so that the new me can be brought forth. I must let go of my own ambitions, my pride, my self-conceit and sacrifice them all on the altar of surrender. God must have all of me, or He cannot use me fully. When I give it all to Him, I will find the peace, the hope, the joy that I so desperately seek, for when I arrive at the end of me, I discover the beginning of God.