Undesirable
You know how it is sometimes... you come across a phrase in a book... you hear someone say something in a certain way on a podcast or interview or lecture... you read something in a text or article online with wording in a particular fashion... maybe even a singular word just pops into your head... and suddenly, feelings or thoughts that had lain unspoken or unidentified spring into clarity and you can now make sense of and voice them for the first time. In an instant, the whole picture has come into view and you are able to now boil down all the details into a cohesive thought and can name the unnamed thing. I had a moment like this recently where a single word seemed to articulate years worth of experiences, conversations.... even condemnations... and I could finally lament and express and feel, in a packaged way, what I had been quietly carrying for so long. And the word was simply this: undesirable. When this word crashed into my brain, I had to roll it around for awhile but i
